My background in Paganism
I started being interested in other religions in 5th grade. I had, of course, been taught by many people about different religions, but I was also taught that they are evil.
In 6th grade, I was formally introduced to Wicca by my dad’s girlfriend. I began collecting info in a binder, that I took everywhere with me for fear of my super-christian stepdad finding it.
I later found 2 friends who also had an interest in it, and so I lent them my makeshift BOS . However, one of their parents found it and took it to the principal. Who then told me that I should go back to Christianity, saying a few things here and there about heathen and evil.
I didn’t pay much attention, ha ha! For a year or two, I stopped being vocal about my beliefs. I had a few rituals of my own, but for the most part I was an atheist, for fear of being in trouble again.
By 8th grade, I didn’t really care enough about anyone else so I started studying again. I was studying Paganism, Hinduism, and politics as if I were ravenous and the information was food. I never claimed a religion, though, finding it too risky. I also started learning German, Latin, brushed up on my French and Japanese, and started taking my art more seriously.
And so it went until last year, 11th grade, when I came across a version of Satanism called “Spiritual Satanism“. I was a Spiritual Satanist until I uncovered a few things about the owner of that website having to do with Nazis, and had a good look around at the general populace and saw that it was either teenagers with too much hate or grown ups with too many prejudices. I became an atheist again, then, and avoided anything religious for a few months.
After a while, as I was taking a walk outside, a certain wind inspired me and made me think of a Goddess I had become fond of when researching spiritual satanism, Lilith.
She has been my Patroness since then, through thick and thin. I am still searching for a patron, though.
And that’s about it! :D
Links for Lilith
Wikipedia
Different writings of Lilith
The Lilith Shrine Has ancient and modern sources for Lilith, and pictures.
Lilith This site is about her role as a demon in Judaism and Christianity
Sacred Spiral-Lilith as Goddess
Godesses of Time
